- Love as just another afternoon pastime. 
It’s a distinct dilemma that fascinates me. Perhaps growing up in India on a heavy Bollywood diet of fate, destiny and star-crossed lovers had something to do with my developing this opposite preoccupation. At any rate, it’s something I see a lot of people in my generation struggle with. We’re young, we’re in New York – people come to this city to grow up and that experience is both a killjoy and a joyride. It’s brutal. It’s beautiful.
Just like falling in love with someone who doesn’t love you back.
When I was younger I found the idea absurd. The older I got, I met more and more people who pined for someone who didn’t want anything more than friendship in return. In varying degrees, it’s something everyone’s experienced, haven’t they? That complicated, mercurial nature of attraction got me writing a bunch of loose, unconnected scenes between a girl (Diya) and a guy (Paddy), scenes that just explored the facets of their relationship as it evolved in Bushwick, Brooklyn. Meandering over a dream-like landscape, trying to recreate the feeling of first attraction – sweet and sour, thick and heightened, like sheesha…
Quirky romances bore me and this film is far from one. It’s a fresh look at young lust, urban love – how far-too-liberal-arts-educated girls and boys respond to primal instincts. A meeting of minds – that’s friendship. Love isn’t quirky or fate or destiny. It’s sexual – a point of view our protagonist Diya learns the hard way. Whether or not it’s a point of view she’s willing to accept is up to her. Instead of creating a sad tale of a love that could be but never is, I found myself writing about a girl who uses the rejection to come to terms with someone she never wanted to deal with – herself. Which brings me to
- My fear of a deep-fried and battered soul.
That’s what I call my fear of burning out before I can succeed on my own terms. Three years ago when I’d just graduated, I thought the smartest thing to do was to stay in New York, get a steady job with a steady pay and start paying off my student loans as soon as possible. A job connected to the world of filmmaking would be a plus but I promised myself not to complain if I could not get one. Thankfully I did. I began working at an entertainment law firm and got to listen in on career-making/sustaining/breaking phone calls, learn how studio deals are drafted, discover the existence of nudity clauses and follow the development of contractual paperwork for films months before they got anywhere near the big screen. Honestly, a year- and-a-half assisting the head lawyer at that firm taught me more about the sheer craftsmanship that goes into the business side of film and television than four years of film school ever could.
And yet, I was in the deep-fryer. I hadn’t gone to Tisch to be a lawyer. Making movies is what I want to do with my hours-days-weeks-years, not drawing up contracts for the folks that make them. I left. Because I’m more afraid of losing the little bit of artistic sanity (or insanity, call it what you will) I have left in me than surviving on canned beans and ramen for a while.
That tussle – between holding onto your dreams and trying to sustain yourself – permeates Bushwick, a predominantly Latin and South American neighborhood where cheap rent draws an unwanted but nonetheless growing minority of young, educated, privileged and penniless actorartistmusicanintellects. Despite the cultural dichotomy between the artists and immigrants in this neighborhood, there is a common desire to succeed. That commonality has intrigued me ever since I moved here, and I knew I wanted to capture it, first on paper, then on film.
A film which, like the loose structure of the screenplay, has a wandering eye… Resulting in a vivid, visual experience of Bushwick, with its Santeria shops nestled by hip cafes, dominoes games on the corner of Knickerbocker Avenue, trained pigeons circling the skies and the local tortilla factory-cum- restaurant crowded with immigrants and artists alike. I want to recreate the stories surrounding me – those of young people trying hard to project a joie de vivre, though inside they’re worried of becoming another cog in the machine. Those of American kids surrounded by vibrant immigrant energy, a place where being American makes you the foreigner – what it means to be planted in Bushwick as opposed to being planted in Times Square… A whole other consciousness of New York City.
Sometimes that’s all it takes to discover oneself. The overhead rattle of the J, M and Z trains as a constant reminder that things are going, going, going but never gone. The red rails of the Williamsburg Bridge whizzing by. That sly Manhattan skyline lurking round the corner. The city topography is one great cinematic metaphor for crossing boundaries and we’re right there with Diya (a first-generation Indian-American) as she discovers that straddling cultural borders shouldn’t be cause for uncertainty but endless possibility.
I relate to Diya’s refusal to reference her Indian identity. In fact, I’ll say that I find it necessary in our modern cultural landscape where ‘ethnic’ film characters tend toward self-exoticism and away from reality. I know that one cannot just turn a camera on life and call it art. One cannot call it reality either. But if you get the right balance, you have the strangest feeling of being lifelike. As a filmmaker, I concentrate on honing that balance, be it through a comprehensive rehearsal process in which actors are encouraged to break away from the confines of the script and discover a moment/emotion perhaps unwritten, painting with light, using the camera to understand characters and using editing to not simply piece a story together but to create meanings and textures.
That’s what’s so exciting about working in this medium. And though the task at hand is daunting – making a feature film is no small feat – I can honestly say I wouldn’t want to be doing anything else.
We’re young. We’re in New York. The race to make ‘it’ is crazy and brutal but when it’s beautiful, life’s electric. We’re a team of emerging artists who thrive on this process of creating not life, but lifelike. Making a spectacle out of the mundane and vice versa.
- Making movies.

















